so my blog is titled "in the moment", and in all honesty that is how i try to live my life. I know we are not promised tomorrow, and most of the time my life is a little to crazy and unscheduled to not just stay "in the moment". however after a horrible year I have found myself totally detached from life and its innerworkings. I feel detached from my family, from my faith (not sayin' i don't have faith) just not feelin' close to it, I'm just not feelin' any joy or frankly, not feelin' anything. It's kinda strage for me too, I mean, I've had my days of feeling far away from things in life, but never to the degree of what I am dealing with right now. so, for me, "in the moment" has become literally that! just trying to get through the day has become a daunting task instead of an enjoyable adventure, cleaning house has pretty much ceased! (sorry to my family) The joy and zeal i used to have for life and love...is gone. It's truly heartbreaking to feel this way. sorry, I know this particular day on this blog is not an enjoyable read..but hey, it's me and my life and this is what i'm feelin' today.