DID and Me

recently it was brought to my attention by a dear friend that I could possibly be dealing with something called DID (dissociative identity disorder) when i looked it up, it did say specifically to be diagnosed that you must clearly have 2 distinctive personalities. I know that i don't have 2 different personalities, however, I do something else it talks about, and that is to detach. i went to a website that i was told about and read an article, here is the link: http://www.survivormanual.com/2010/04/dissociative-identity-disorder-an-analogy/
I really related to the way the writer described the feeling and how this can happen. I remember growing up feeling detached from life, but only in certain situations, and i could never understand what i felt or what to call it. I just felt depressed frequently. abuse was my way of life, self abuse. mainly in the form of an eating disorder and promiscuity. I know now as an adult that these are common things that victims experience. until i became an adult, i don't think i felt like a victim, it was just the way life was, and that's the cards i was dealt. for some reason in the last year or so this detachment has become much worse, to the point that i don't even know how to deal with the simple things in life. the things I do are very robotic. laundry, cleaning, running errands. I feel no joy, just detached and empty from everything that is precious to me. it is absolutely heartbreaking to walk around my house and feel like i don't belong here, to look at my kids and feel like i am no longer capable of being a good mom, to look at my husband and feel like we are strangers. to have no desire to do anything and not know or fully understand why. why so suddenly? why me? why now? why this? I know God has a plan and purpose for everything, its just very hard when your walkin' through it. hence..Egypt.