Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know
hmmmm..not really sure..can't say that I wish I didn't know any specific person, there are a few I wish I had met under different circumstances, however they were a necessary part of my life.
I guess if I have to choose, I would say my step-father (ex step dad) As he was my "abuser." More than anything though, I wish he would be accountable for what he did and how he destroyed my life. I know that will never happen, at least not here on earth. It gets easier with time to let him go, and what he did to me. My oldest daughter is now the age I was when he started to abuse me, so I am reminded more of what happend than in previous years, and have become VERY protective of my kids. I need to write him a "farewell letter", guess that's another topic for another day. In the meantime, I can say, "what goes around, comes around" and "karma's a bitch", oh! and "vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord"..the last time I saw him, he had re-married his first wife, and she was on the list for a heart transplant, and he went from a high paying job to stocking shelves at wal-mart (no offense to those who may work there) I know it is a respectable job, but he worked in programming at a large bank and made well over 100K a year, so this was a downgrade for him. Anyway, see ya' BOB, and I pray one day God will deliver me from the anger I have lived with toward you, cause I am the only one paying for your crimes. May God have mercy on your soul, cause I don't.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
30 days of truth- day 9 or 10 ..something like that! :)
Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted...
My (guy) best friend, Charles. we met the summer of 5th grade, he was a skater boy, and I was IN LOVE! lol. The first time I ever snuck out of my house was to see him, I got caught by the barking dog next door, and was immediately grouded for a month! (I think this was the only time my mom stuck to a punishment) I was devistated, for a 6th grader to be grounded from her new "boyfriend" it was the end of life as I knew it, and out "relationship"..we stayed friends, and as the next couple of years passed by, he began to get into some trouble. His mother moved him out to Keystone (out in the "country") in hopes that the slower life would keep him on the strait and narrow. (little did she know that putting him in the middle of nowhere, only stirred his curiosity to get into MORE trouble out of sheer boredom!) anyway..we continued to stay freinds through letters and phone calls, and when it came time for graduation, He made sure I was there. It was the begining of a budding relationship for us once again, really we were just "there for each other" we both had busy lives, and lived about 1 1/2 hrs. away, so there was not a lot of time to spend together. We tried to get together once a month or so and spend a weekend together. charles was one of the only people I knew (growing up) that accepted me for me. No questions, no judgeing, no disagreements..just accepted me with open arms and loved me unconditionally. I wanted him to give me away at my wedding, but I guess after all we had been through over our years, it was too much emotion envolved. We still remained friends for several years, but things were never the same for us after I got married..I remember one year on my birthday David (my husband) planned a surprise party for me, he called Charles and invited him, but he did not come..I called to find out why, and he thought David was setting him up, he thought he was gonna get a "beat down" when he got to our house. LOL..eventually our friendship faded out. The last time we spoke was when I called to tell him I was pregnant with Ashlyn. I have no idea where he is now, last time I spoke to his mom (a few years ago) she said he lived near me, but I have yet to run into him. I miss him a lot. I pray that life has been good to him since we parted ways, and that one day I will see him when we get to heaven and he can fill me in on all that I have missed :)
My (guy) best friend, Charles. we met the summer of 5th grade, he was a skater boy, and I was IN LOVE! lol. The first time I ever snuck out of my house was to see him, I got caught by the barking dog next door, and was immediately grouded for a month! (I think this was the only time my mom stuck to a punishment) I was devistated, for a 6th grader to be grounded from her new "boyfriend" it was the end of life as I knew it, and out "relationship"..we stayed friends, and as the next couple of years passed by, he began to get into some trouble. His mother moved him out to Keystone (out in the "country") in hopes that the slower life would keep him on the strait and narrow. (little did she know that putting him in the middle of nowhere, only stirred his curiosity to get into MORE trouble out of sheer boredom!) anyway..we continued to stay freinds through letters and phone calls, and when it came time for graduation, He made sure I was there. It was the begining of a budding relationship for us once again, really we were just "there for each other" we both had busy lives, and lived about 1 1/2 hrs. away, so there was not a lot of time to spend together. We tried to get together once a month or so and spend a weekend together. charles was one of the only people I knew (growing up) that accepted me for me. No questions, no judgeing, no disagreements..just accepted me with open arms and loved me unconditionally. I wanted him to give me away at my wedding, but I guess after all we had been through over our years, it was too much emotion envolved. We still remained friends for several years, but things were never the same for us after I got married..I remember one year on my birthday David (my husband) planned a surprise party for me, he called Charles and invited him, but he did not come..I called to find out why, and he thought David was setting him up, he thought he was gonna get a "beat down" when he got to our house. LOL..eventually our friendship faded out. The last time we spoke was when I called to tell him I was pregnant with Ashlyn. I have no idea where he is now, last time I spoke to his mom (a few years ago) she said he lived near me, but I have yet to run into him. I miss him a lot. I pray that life has been good to him since we parted ways, and that one day I will see him when we get to heaven and he can fill me in on all that I have missed :)
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
30 Days of Truth- Day 8
time to get back in the groove..
Someone who made my life hell, or treated me like Poo.
Well there are probably a few people in my life who would fall into this category, but I really don't want to give them the credit the deserve (or more truthfully, want) so I'm just gonna say a few words about "them" without naming names and move on.
For starters, those who fall into this category.."What goes around comes around", Vengence is mine sayeth the Lord, and HE can do much worse then I could dream of.
People who harm children.."eye for an eye"
God is working on my heart for the things that I have lived through, I am not a judgemental person, however, My God is. I'll let him handle the rest. :)
Someone who made my life hell, or treated me like Poo.
Well there are probably a few people in my life who would fall into this category, but I really don't want to give them the credit the deserve (or more truthfully, want) so I'm just gonna say a few words about "them" without naming names and move on.
For starters, those who fall into this category.."What goes around comes around", Vengence is mine sayeth the Lord, and HE can do much worse then I could dream of.
People who harm children.."eye for an eye"
God is working on my heart for the things that I have lived through, I am not a judgemental person, however, My God is. I'll let him handle the rest. :)
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Tuesday, September 28, 2010
30 days of truth..i forgot what day..
Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know
hmmmm..not really sure..can't say that I wish I didn't know any specific person, there are a few I wish I had met under different circumstances, however they were a necessary part of my life.
I guess if I have to choose, I would say my step-father (ex step dad) As he was my "abuser." More than anything though, I wish he would be accountable for what he did and how he destroyed my life. I know that will never happen, at least not here on earth. It gets easier with time to let him go, and what he did to me. My oldest daughter is now the age I was when he started to abuse me, so I am reminded more of what happend than in previous years, and have become VERY protective of my kids. I need to write him a "farewell letter", guess that's another topic for another day. In the meantime, I can say, "what goes around, comes around" and "karma's a bitch", oh! and "vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord"..the last time I saw him, he had re-married his first wife, and she was on the list for a heart transplant, and he went from a high paying job to stocking shelves at wal-mart (no offense to those who may work there) I know it is a respectable job, but he worked in programming at a large bank and made well over 100K a year, so this was a downgrade for him. Anyway, see ya' BOB, and I pray one day God will deliver me from the anger I have lived with toward you, cause I am the only one paying for your crimes. May God have mercy on your soul, cause I don't.
hmmmm..not really sure..can't say that I wish I didn't know any specific person, there are a few I wish I had met under different circumstances, however they were a necessary part of my life.
I guess if I have to choose, I would say my step-father (ex step dad) As he was my "abuser." More than anything though, I wish he would be accountable for what he did and how he destroyed my life. I know that will never happen, at least not here on earth. It gets easier with time to let him go, and what he did to me. My oldest daughter is now the age I was when he started to abuse me, so I am reminded more of what happend than in previous years, and have become VERY protective of my kids. I need to write him a "farewell letter", guess that's another topic for another day. In the meantime, I can say, "what goes around, comes around" and "karma's a bitch", oh! and "vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord"..the last time I saw him, he had re-married his first wife, and she was on the list for a heart transplant, and he went from a high paying job to stocking shelves at wal-mart (no offense to those who may work there) I know it is a respectable job, but he worked in programming at a large bank and made well over 100K a year, so this was a downgrade for him. Anyway, see ya' BOB, and I pray one day God will deliver me from the anger I have lived with toward you, cause I am the only one paying for your crimes. May God have mercy on your soul, cause I don't.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
30 days of truth- day 9 or 10 ..something like that! :)
Someone you didn't want to let go, but just drifted...
My (guy) best friend, Charles. we met the summer of 5th grade, he was a skater boy, and I was IN LOVE! lol. The first time I ever snuck out of my house was to see him, I got caught by the barking dog next door, and was immediately grouded for a month! (I think this was the only time my mom stuck to a punishment) I was devistated, for a 6th grader to be grounded from her new "boyfriend" it was the end of life as I knew it, and out "relationship"..we stayed friends, and as the next couple of years passed by, he began to get into some trouble. His mother moved him out to Keystone (out in the "country") in hopes that the slower life would keep him on the strait and narrow. (little did she know that putting him in the middle of nowhere, only stirred his curiosity to get into MORE trouble out of sheer boredom!) anyway..we continued to stay freinds through letters and phone calls, and when it came time for graduation, He made sure I was there. It was the begining of a budding relationship for us once again, really we were just "there for each other" we both had busy lives, and lived about 1 1/2 hrs. away, so there was not a lot of time to spend together. We tried to get together once a month or so and spend a weekend together. charles was one of the only people I knew (growing up) that accepted me for me. No questions, no judgeing, no disagreements..just accepted me with open arms and loved me unconditionally. I wanted him to give me away at my wedding, but I guess after all we had been through over our years, it was too much emotion envolved. We still remained friends for several years, but things were never the same for us after I got married..I remember one year on my birthday David (my husband) planned a surprise party for me, he called Charles and invited him, but he did not come..I called to find out why, and he thought David was setting him up, he thought he was gonna get a "beat down" when he got to our house. LOL..eventually our friendship faded out. The last time we spoke was when I called to tell him I was pregnant with Ashlyn. I have no idea where he is now, last time I spoke to his mom (a few years ago) she said he lived near me, but I have yet to run into him. I miss him a lot. I pray that life has been good to him since we parted ways, and that one day I will see him when we get to heaven and he can fill me in on all that I have missed :)
My (guy) best friend, Charles. we met the summer of 5th grade, he was a skater boy, and I was IN LOVE! lol. The first time I ever snuck out of my house was to see him, I got caught by the barking dog next door, and was immediately grouded for a month! (I think this was the only time my mom stuck to a punishment) I was devistated, for a 6th grader to be grounded from her new "boyfriend" it was the end of life as I knew it, and out "relationship"..we stayed friends, and as the next couple of years passed by, he began to get into some trouble. His mother moved him out to Keystone (out in the "country") in hopes that the slower life would keep him on the strait and narrow. (little did she know that putting him in the middle of nowhere, only stirred his curiosity to get into MORE trouble out of sheer boredom!) anyway..we continued to stay freinds through letters and phone calls, and when it came time for graduation, He made sure I was there. It was the begining of a budding relationship for us once again, really we were just "there for each other" we both had busy lives, and lived about 1 1/2 hrs. away, so there was not a lot of time to spend together. We tried to get together once a month or so and spend a weekend together. charles was one of the only people I knew (growing up) that accepted me for me. No questions, no judgeing, no disagreements..just accepted me with open arms and loved me unconditionally. I wanted him to give me away at my wedding, but I guess after all we had been through over our years, it was too much emotion envolved. We still remained friends for several years, but things were never the same for us after I got married..I remember one year on my birthday David (my husband) planned a surprise party for me, he called Charles and invited him, but he did not come..I called to find out why, and he thought David was setting him up, he thought he was gonna get a "beat down" when he got to our house. LOL..eventually our friendship faded out. The last time we spoke was when I called to tell him I was pregnant with Ashlyn. I have no idea where he is now, last time I spoke to his mom (a few years ago) she said he lived near me, but I have yet to run into him. I miss him a lot. I pray that life has been good to him since we parted ways, and that one day I will see him when we get to heaven and he can fill me in on all that I have missed :)
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
30 Days of Truth- Day 8
time to get back in the groove..
Someone who made my life hell, or treated me like Poo.
Well there are probably a few people in my life who would fall into this category, but I really don't want to give them the credit the deserve (or more truthfully, want) so I'm just gonna say a few words about "them" without naming names and move on.
For starters, those who fall into this category.."What goes around comes around", Vengence is mine sayeth the Lord, and HE can do much worse then I could dream of.
People who harm children.."eye for an eye"
God is working on my heart for the things that I have lived through, I am not a judgemental person, however, My God is. I'll let him handle the rest. :)
Someone who made my life hell, or treated me like Poo.
Well there are probably a few people in my life who would fall into this category, but I really don't want to give them the credit the deserve (or more truthfully, want) so I'm just gonna say a few words about "them" without naming names and move on.
For starters, those who fall into this category.."What goes around comes around", Vengence is mine sayeth the Lord, and HE can do much worse then I could dream of.
People who harm children.."eye for an eye"
God is working on my heart for the things that I have lived through, I am not a judgemental person, however, My God is. I'll let him handle the rest. :)
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