30 Days of Truth- Day 4

Something I have to forgive someone for:

wow! this one is going to be tough for me. I have actually 2 people I have to forgive. My biological father, and my (ex) step-father. I am not in a place where I can go into details as to their offenses to me. I have learned over the years that the more anger and bitterness I carry around for these 2 significant men in my life, the more depressed, anger and hurt I feel. I am coming to terms with the fact that in order to move on and walk in freedom, I must set my feelings free and give them completely and fully to God! I know..that is sooooo much easier said than done! I have forgiven them many times in prayer, and even said to one of them that I forgive him. However, I tend to pick up that anger and bitterness when it's convenient for me, when I'm having a bad day, month or year, When things are not going right for me, when life isn't working out the way I PLANNED. It's easy to blame others who have hurt you for the problems and issues we face, after all, it is their offenses that have caused you such undue pain and distress, thus bringing on complications in life. I am learning that the only way I will ever be free from my emotions and destructive feelings, is to walk in forgiveness. After all, does the Bible not say "ye who is without sin, cast the first stone?" God is no respector of persons, their sin, my sin, your sin, is all the same to God. There are no different "levels" of sin, even though it would be nice to be able to say that about some of the particurarly heinous ones. Thank You GOD for forgiving me for my wrong doings..and PLEASE help me to forgive those, as you have forgiven me. Show me how to extend your grace to those who have hurt me. Help me to see past what they have done to me, and see them with YOUR eyes God, to see through to their hearts, to find the good in them, and truly be able to let it go, and receive my freedom.